under the bell jar

i'm so good

i'm just so fucking good at looking after myself when i'm depressed

it snuck right the fuck up this time
and hit with unprecedented malice

like a blitzkrieg of a black hole

perhaps the 9 hours sleep spread over a 72 hour period in the weekend hastened and abetted the strike, which admittedly has been somewhat presaged by indicators i've been stalwartly trying to ignore

anyway, it'll be ok

it's just very tedious and draining

so i rented some movies to watch as a distraction

just you try and tell me these aren't the top five pick-me-ups of all time:

• into the wild
• requiem for a dream
• blow
• the basketball diaries
• magnolia

damn sophie's choice and watership down for being out

damn them to hell