atonement

wednesday

• spin class (50 min) with two complimentary cramps for two calves (mine)

thursday

• demoralizing fitness testing whereby i get categorised as "poor"
• 20 min on the crosstrainer with my heart rate 180+

i don't know why it's called the cross trainer and why i should have to use it
i'm plenty cross already and i don't need any fucking training in it

so in general, universe, get fucked and fuck off, ok?  good