friday, i'm (not) in love

tonight i decided to retire to my awesome bed for the evening and watch movies and eat junk food.  this was in response to several situations, which i shall outline for you thus:

• i was still feeling a little under the weather after getting food poisoning last night after going out for dinner and consuming vietnamese seafood broth.  this was delicioso and comforting at the time, especially since i have a cold,  but by 2am this morning i really felt less than ideal, and poor chirsty spent a reasonable amount of time talking down the great white telephone

• when i sat up and reached over to get my glasses when i was sick in the middle of the night, i knocked over my glass of just juice tropical bubbles lite directly onto the multi power board, which immediately started making a fizzing and crackling sound.  so at the same time i was retching, i was hurriedly trying to cut the power to the extension cord and minimise the possibility of electrocution and/or electrical fire and/or localised apocalypse

• i am old and alone with nobody to love me and mice will eat my face in my sleep

• today i had to try on bridesmaid dresses with the other bridesmaid who is 22 years old and a size 6 

so, i rented "zombieland" because i love it, and i had read about "away we go" in my empire magazine just last night, so i had to get that when i saw it on the shelf

now, zombieland was even more awesome than the first time round, and not just because there was no sexual tension a la third date distraction like the last time, but because i knew when my favourite and best parts were coming up.   i could notice a whole lot of other stuff that i missed the first time because i thought i was going to hold hands with that boy, or that he might try and touch my leg.  but it was also kind of sad and hollow, because i really miss having someone to share this kind of cool movie with. 

away we go was really lovely and funny and sweet and quirky and beautiful.  and it made me cry because of all those thing, but it also shows exactly what i want, what i'm missing in my life and what i can't do a damn thing about getting.  the scenes that really got to me in regard to that empty and lacking part of my life were the ones when verona and burt are lying face to face, really close, talking and laughing and touching and making jokes.  i miss creating that exclusive world that you don't share with anyone else, that tiny world for two that exists just for the pair of you.

see, the thing is, you're supposed to be happy with your job, your career, your friends, your extra curricular activities.  it's not cool to say you really want something you have very little control over getting, and that the other stuff is just a distraction from what you're really wanting.  when that's what you want, it's what you seem to see everywhere. 

there's probably a lolcat about it, you know.  and it's not this one